It has been one month since I started this hunger strike and although I would say it has been a positive experience for me overall, there have been some drawbacks.
Positives:
1. I feel healthy, and have lost a little weight.
2. I'm paying more attention to what I'm putting in my body, especially protein.
3. It has started conversations with people that wouldn't have started before.
4. I am now aware of who my true friends are.
5. My sleep has been more sound.
6. It has reaffirmed my belief that if you put your mind to something (any diet, project, idea) you can accomplish it.
7. It has helped me keep my Crohn's Disease in check even more than usual.
8. I have felt strong each time I face temptation to eat when I see/smell something that looks/smells delicious, especially when groups make dinner for Hope Lodge.
9. I'm not spending as much money on food.
10. I have still been able to have fun spending time with friends including: Spending two different weekends on The Cape, seeing Pearl Jam at both Fenway shows, walking around Boston College, going on a harbor cruise, and to a Red Sox/ Yankees game with an old BC friend (and one of my favorite people), going to Burlington, VT and playing in a 32-team wiffle ball tournament - finally beating my brother's team (although later eliminated in the playoffs against my brother's team), and laughing non-stop when I went to see Sausage Party.
11. Have been able to fulfill all my Hope Lodge duties.
Negatives:
1. Mentioned in the last post, someone I was close to told me "I just can't watch you wither away" and has chosen to stop talking to me. This hurts, but also makes me realize each time this person said "I love you", they were just words.
2. My recovery time from playing hockey is longer including post-exercise naps.
3. Facing daily temptation has been difficult at times.
4. Feelings that I am being judged for what I put in my body, while I've never done that to others and don't want to, until they question me. (Conversations have gone something like this: Person to me: You need to eat real food / get protein / stop this. Me: Are you still eating meat? Person: Yeah. Me: I think that's wrong, so until you're going to stop that, please back off.)
5. There is still violence and war going on worldwide. Sad, but I still plan on doing this for at least another month.
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